true things.

so there once was this dude named Moses.

and he one cool dude.

he was a shepherd, of all things.

a shepherd.

but God saw something different in Moses. something special. something useful.

and so God spoke to Moses. through a burning bush. on Holy ground.

what?!

and Moses says, "but who am i to do all this?"

and so i propose the same question. "who am i to do all this?" i'm just a college student. living here on a campus, where i am pushed and stretched and find no balance sometimes.

how was i chosen to receive a Love so fulfilling and unfailing?

(it's because i am worthy of Love so fulfilling and unfailing...among other things..)

so why is it that i let sleep overtake me when my soul, spirit, and body all long to be awake?

to be living? to be loving, serving, helping, guiding...

so i guess that i've just been sleeping most of my life. God's love has awakened me, but sometimes i find myself drifting off...what's going to spark it again?

am i content? am i settled? am i enough? am i spiritually aware enough to lead? to Love? to plan, prepare, and guide others? to be an example? the questions are endless and open-ended. and not knowing full answers makes me uneasy.

but i know that God equipped Moses with the things he needed.

(a hand, a staff, the Nile, and his brother. thanks, camp.)

and so i can't help but trust that God is going to provide me with that i need.

i read a quote today that i really enjoy. and i heard a song that i really like. and i read and thought about Moses a lot.

'those who have shaken off sleep eventually become all awake within.'

-CLEMENT OF ALEXANDRIA.

i hate that once things start to look on the brighter side, one small piece of information can just shoot it all out the window and make me slide backwards. where is this all going?

i want to be awake for the next 60+ years.

avoiding math homework.

to be in True unity in God is to be honest, forgiving, and above all, loving.

these three ideas seem so simple, yet i find myself, time and time again, forgetting about them.

isn't community the idea that i've heard and preached for the past four years? not just at wingate, but in the life of my home church as well? why do i find it so hard to live out this idea of unity that is so essential to the Church.

the Body of Christ is present on this campus. that is a fact that cannot be ignored or denied. it stirs my soul to think that the power of God is being shown and found here at this place. but i can't help but wonder if winning converts over loving the broken is something i agree with. sure, an eternal home in heaven sounds wonderful, and will be wonderful, but i'm not sure if that is my primary goal in my walk with God. i want to BE the literal hands and feet of Christ every place that i go. i want people to see a light in me that is unique and different because God created me to be that way. God calls me to love my neighbor. regardless of any sort of sin or wrong or crime or way of life they have. and especially regardless of anything theological differences i may have from them. because God is big enough to handle it. God's big enough to sort through all our differences of faith as long as we all agree on worshipping and loving the same big God.

so let's be honest. let's be forgiving. let's love.

let's spark conversation and not keep God pocked sized and convenient. let's realize that God is a lot bigger than a Book written thousands of years ago, nor is God confined to that Book. i'm not doubting the truth or validity to this Book, but God is so much bigger than rules and regulations and laws. God is present in our daily lives. God is still working, moving, and around us. God. is. BIG.

a wise friend of mine once said, "God is a common thread, keeping everything weaved together in this word; to hold things together; and [God] runs through all life forms of all universes"

God ultimately is Love. God weaves this patchwork quilt we call humanity together. God is the thread binding those who choose to believe, whether we like eachother or not.

i'm not saying i like you, i'm just saying that i Love you.

"As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

John 13:34-35