in between.

today i have realized that without God, i really have nothing.

once you feel it, it's something you can't turn away from.

i am in the middle of being born and being dead. i am full of life. i am full of Life. i am in this world to cause a stir, to be something different, to proclaim Truth. i am the trapeze swinger who has let go of the first bar. i am flying in the air, ready to catch and hold onto the next bar. this air is full of mystery, full of Love, full of exhilaration, full of anxiety, and full of Hope. i am an instrument used only to proclaim the Truth i so much believe and identify in.

God can use me for big things. that's the only thing that makes sense right now.

God is good.

from Psalm 70:

"but as for me, i will always have Hope;

i will praise You more and more.

my mouth will tell of Your righteousness,

of Your salvation all day long,

though i know not its measure.

i will come and proclaim Your mighty acts,

O Sovereign Lord;

i will proclaim Your righteousness, Yours alone.

since my youth, O God, You have taught me,

and to this day i declare Your marvelous deeds.

even when i am old and gray,

do not forsake me, O God,

till i declare Your power to the next generation,

Your might to all who are to come."